Ahhh, another guilt laden post about how bad I feel about not writing in this thing.  Don’t get me wrong I do.  This is one of the few creative outlets I have these days. 

The last month has been so crazy though.  Work has been a constant thorn in my side and obstacle to general happiness.  A new junior partner at my firm makes my life a living hell daily.  He’s a meddler, and you can’t do anything without having it meddled in.  It slows down productivity, which creates anxiety.

I am also newly single.  I don’t like getting into details of that kind of stuff here (not that there are any details of note, my life still remains fairly mundane…)  However, there has been some good news lately. 

Miraculously I passed the NY bar exam.

Wow.  I honestly didn’t think I was going to do it this time.  It was a difficult exam as I discussed in a previous post and my study time prior the exam wasn’t nearly as much as I would’ve liked in a perfect world.  However it was enough, and I am grateful.

What a shot in the arm that was for me.  I think I actually needed it.  I had been in a funk for weeks and while passing the bar in itself means nothing ultimately, the redeeming value of it for me was that I was able to do it in the face of adversity.  I was working very hard, the partner was particularly on my ass that month, and I was involved with someone and that took study time.  It was a really really hard thing for me to do, and I managed to succeed. 

My experience with music showed me that I always needed to put in more effort and study more just to break even.  Law school exams were kind of similar.  This experience has definitely made me feel better about myself.  In fact I think I feel better about this exam than I did when I passed the Florida bar (which in comparision, I took under IDEAL conditions).

Funny thing how something as dreadful as a bar exam can make you feel better.

Andre, Tony